Tune My Heart to Sing Thy Grace
Ok, so I had this breakthrough recently that the sloth, apathy, obsession with my appearance, and consumption-based living are all tied up with weak spots in my faith. Think Seven Deadly Sins. You know, sloth, greed, gluttony, avarice, lust, etc. etc.... what are the other two? I don't know, but I'm sure that I've been up to no good in those two as well.
Living my faith should make an impact in ALL the parts of my life. Get the Grace part in order, and I bet the other things will become a lot clearer and simpler. I am a beloved child of God, and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. My husband loves me, I have incredible friends, and I doubt very much that my dog cares if I am a size 12 or a size 6. Or what color hair actually turns out to be. So with that in mind, I also pray that my spirit will be revived and nudged closer to God day by day. Closer to God as I get closer to the woman He made me to be.
Leaning on Grace also means deciding not to get all hung up on guilt or perfection. I don't want "green" or "healthy" or "natural-looking" or even "authentic" to become just a replacement obsession. Loving myself can go too far. Pride and conceit (and judgey-ness) are just as bad as self loathing and laziness. So the trick will be to find the sweet spot where I love my neighbor as myself, and myself as God loves me.
And that is going to take big gulps of grace.
